Monday, April 25, 2011

How Much Can One Family Endure With God On Their Side?

So it's been so many months... and so much has happened.
  • We had our first fertility shot cycle in December. We ended up with 7 viable follicles (total) in both ovaries. Although I only have one working tube they still wanted us to cancel the cycle. I was instructed to go home and give myself the shot to release the eggs but not to have intercourse for 2 weeks.
  • The third week in January Adam and I found out we were pregnant. Evidently sperm can hang around for a few days until the eggs arrive. Ooops. To say the least our doctor was not happy because they didn't know how many babies there could be or how many babies I can carry. 7 would be a bad number.
  • The next day we got a call from our adoption agency saying that we'd been picked by a mother from Georgia and she was due in 2 WEEKS!
  • We freaked out! What are we going to do? Say yes? Who knows if the baby I was carrying would make it? What if Georgia baby was destined to be ours? Adam and I decided that God wouldn't give us anything he didn't want us to have or didn't think we could handle. We said yes to Georgia baby.
  • Panic! We have NOTHING in our house for a baby! We aren't ready to have a baby in two weeks! Rush baby shower at work - what a blessing! What a wonderful bunch of ladies!
  • The Tuttles gave us all they could! What amazing friends. Without Manda I would have been a wreck! I love you woman!
  • Our last contact with Georgia baby's mom was the 22nd/23rd. We never heard from her again. The first week of February we found our that a little boy was boy on the 25th and the mother had decided to keep him. To say the least it was heartbreaking.
  • The second week in February I went back into the doctor for a second ultrasound because the first one had shown low amniotic fluid. They were unable to find a heartbeat. We had lost our baby.
  • To say the least the first two months of 2011 were the worst of our lives.
  • Heartbreaking? Absolutely! Angry? Absolutely! Hope? Lost! Thankfully for my amazing husband I have healed. Hope is no longer lost and my faith that God will not give us more than we can handle is ever present in my mind.
  • The next week we were matched with another mother. We weren't as psyched - as we were still healing and didn't continue with that mom.
  • We have been matched with two more moms since then and it just hasn't worked out. Unfortunately some of the fairytale has left the whole process for us. We know that it will work out for us if it is what God has planned for us.
  • We are also hoping for another successful cycle with our fertility doc. The plus to the miscarriage is that we know I CAN get pregnant.
  • Some wonderful news... my little brother and his wife are expecting in September. I am so excited for them. I can't wait to meet the new baby!
  • Some other good news we did adopt a little one from the pound. We named him Willy and he is a Chihuahua/Pomeranian cross. We love him to pieces - minus the barking at night... which we seem to have cured with one night of a bark collar!

3 comments:

  1. You guys are amazing! Your faith is encouraging in such difficult times! Hang in there - you guys are going to have a baby one way or another and it is GOING TO BE AWESOME! Love you bunches!

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  2. M
    I haven't been on your blog in months. Tonight I just happened to click on it while visiting Team Tuttle. As I read your post I immediately welled up with tears and got that feeling in my stomach. I understand heartache, devastation, a loss of a dream and crushing waves of depression. You, my dear, are healing, having God's faith fill you up and becoming stronger. I could have never written a post like this only a few months after the fact. Your honestly and vulnerability are inspiring. I KNOW God has a plan for Adam and you. I KNOW your little one is out there waiting for your love. If you need proof take a peek on The Hanson Hat Trick. Our love story of perfect timing will soon be yours.
    Sending so much love your way,
    T

    PS - We need to have a WRF meeting to plan our outfits and choreography. The big night with the Dweebs again (yahoo!) will be here before we know it! :)

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  3. I happen to click on your blog today to find and reread your last post. It's amazing to think you wrote this almost a year ago and so much heartache has continued to happen...
    I'm am so praying that Micah Daniel is your forever child and that all this heartache will be a distant memory soon.
    Love to the Morrow Family!

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